felt me.. be me.

im so tired..
i was on my way to amk mrt station to meet some friends
den i was msging randall to ask if he reach le.
actually wanna type "daddy, you reach le mar ?"
instead, what came out was "darling, you reach le mar? "
den i send le =.="
im fucking stupid LOLSS-
den when i went to check what i've sent i saw it's DARLING instead of DADDY
i was like SHOCKED AAHHHH ! i almost fainted ITS SO EMBARASSING CANS?!
DAMN. horrible mistake hahas
i kinda miss typing darling , darling .. , darling ...
lolss. im being horribly lovesick. eeww.
okays, im nuts.


den everyone before everyone reach
me, pauline, flor, weisan, rach went into cheers to hide
cos it was SUPER WARM CAN !
den went in le hehehe
den we wanted to buy some alcoholic drinks mar
den we were deciding we to go and pay
den they were like .. fidel go la go la
T-T i look so old meh.. sobs, sobs.
WAHAHAS-
(the cashier didn't even bother to check my ic or whatever)


den afterthat we went to chan's hse le lor
it was kinda funny leh, one group of people playing majong
another group of us playing cards, another group playing xbox and PS2
wahh, chan say the PS2 he borrow from he's dad de.
HE'S DAD SO HIP ARHH ! =x
den afterthat we starting drinking.. den everyone like..
face red red neck red red le lolss


hehe i left at about 2.15 den left for town to look for my crabies le
:) i love my gwenie !
she's so sweet hehe heard about my breakup with him
den she very sweet lor hahas
den that tg & balls IDIOT PIGGIES !!
kidnapped our handbags den both run all over far east den made us chase after them
waliew, its super paisehs.
den gwen started talking about weixin
=.= can't stand.. den say she feel that there's attraction btw the both of us
then i like.. nothing to say..
den the worst part ahlarmak..
she went asking all of them the same qn,
and they all say yeah yeah..
and i feel SO PAISEHS !
hahas but she's still really sweet okays !
hahas cos balls and tg was laughing at my ic
they say my ic photo look like majiam insurance promoter sobsobs.
hahas den she said tg one worst, like criminal refugee
hahahas den shiya, so scary.. >.<


i dunno i dunno i dunno ~~
lalala. the way he told me that it's pointless blah blah.
i guess it's really over.
it's over? really over?
really really over? is it over?
point me, im fucking stupid. LOVESICK.
i really dunno what im waiting for.
hahas i feel myself starting to drift back, back and back and back
i tell myself im not weak, who needs a guy who don't care
but so what. i still feel weak.
blah whatever. i dunno what im talking about also
i miss that him..


i went to sentosa last night
and we went to the beach
we're playing candles
and im so lonely-
char got grace, pam got de victor
fidel got nobody.
im nobody, fidel got fidel whatever.
OKAYS IM CRAPPING.
we were playing with candle hehe
i made a heart with the candles
den mycandles keep going off and i keep burning myself T-T
okay, im so childish fine.


den i sat there .. and listen to mp3
i was playing "zai yi ci yong you"
den i was drawing he's name on the sand "yu zhi yu zhi" in chinese
den i started crying ..
drip drip drip.. i continued crying unnoticed.
den suddenly jiejie turn over " SHIWEN ! AIYOH ! "
okays, is this stupid ? or lovesick ?


and i burned my hands so many times
and wax keep dripping on my hands.. so painful
go home my hands red red le.. burned.
nobody to sayang me. nobody to hug me. nobody to hold me tight.

have i ever felt you.. be you ? really?

-den have you ever felt me.. be me ?